Saturday yoga came with a 15min meditation practice after which, after reading so much from Eat, Pray, Love and just being more mindful, interested me.
I tried to lift again Friday, but I think my leg has actually been injured. After warming up and active stretching, I couldn't actually do a body weight squat. When my knee bent further than 90, my right knee gave out.
So I gave it up as a bad day.
Yoga was fine. I didn't get in early enough, so I totally didn't get to warm up enough. I felt alright, but my knees still hurt. It made me think about a lot of how rest is a vital part of progress and I haven't been treating my rest properly. So for next week I'll try to sleep more. As well as stretching and massaging. But I really don't want to take any time off. So I'll try to see what a couple of days will buy me, with good concentration on it.
Also haven't been to yoga for like a month, so it was a lot more strenuous than I remember. I couldn't find that groove of mindfulness and timing. I tried being more forgiving to myself, I didn't think of it as giving up, but feeling like not using my time for maximum potential. In any case I will try spending a little more time on yoga, being more mindful at the practice, and avoid showing up late as I think my other practices have shown, I require lots of warm up time. Minimum 15 minutes.
I want to lift more, but I also need to start prepping for the Marathon. It's slightly annoying that I can't find the time I want to practice so many different hobbies or sleep right or recovery correctly. But that's more of my impatience at work.
And I currently think that my main time sink is work. I find all my other hobbies so much more interesting and fulfilling.
Georgia O'Keefe was the main exhibit in the Brooklyn museum and towards the later parts of her life, she lived in New Mexico, on an abandoned post office. There, she devoted her time to "doing whatever the fuck she wanted cuz she was a badass." direct quote.
And so while of course it was artistic and an means to fuel her creativity. But also that simple independence was really awe inspiring and I guess I don't think I currently have independence (job) and I think with independence I would be doing better things.
But that also just impatience, in a different form.